Choices

This?

Or

لا تحكيلي عن الحب..٬
ما بدي اسمع!٬
انتحرت الذكريات.
٬خلص الحكي..٬
خمدت نار الولع..
وراحت ايام الدلع..
جمر الهوي انطفا..
زيت الغرام خِلص خلَص
والقلب الي نزف..
نزف..
تَ نشف..
ما عاد هالقلب رجف..
خلص - مات الشغف..
خلصوا الليلة والألف!
وسكتت شهرزاد..
وغرق السندباد..

راح الزعل هوْ والأمل..
لا في شجن ولا في ندم..
رضينا حكم الزمن..
ما عاد في خوف..
ما عاد في دراما او نكد..
ما عاد في قلق..
وراحت ايام الغيرة
والارق
ما بدي اسمع حكي..
عن الحب والغرام..
وحكي الأفلام!
ما عدت انت الوحي..
مجرد خيال ومرق..
وقت ضايع..
من عمري انسرق..
مجرد حبر ..٬
..ع ورق

Communicating Doors Preshow- Sound Design

Communicating Doors - Preshow - sound design by Lubzi

The Gettysburg Address

The Gettysburg Address

Gettysburg, Pennsylvania
November 19, 1863 On June 1, 1865, Senator Charles Sumner commented on what is now considered the most famous speech by President Abraham Lincoln. In his eulogy on the slain president, he called it a "monumental act." He said Lincoln was mistaken that "the world will little note, nor long remember what we say here." Rather, the Bostonian remarked, "The world noted at once what he said, and will never cease to remember it. The battle itself was less important than the speech."

 
Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in Liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal.

Now we are engaged in a great civil war, testing whether that nation, or any nation so conceived and so dedicated, can long endure. We are met on a great battle-field of that war. We have come to dedicate a portion of that field, as a final resting place for those who here gave their lives that that nation might live. It is altogether fitting and proper that we should do this.

But, in a larger sense, we can not dedicate -- we can not consecrate -- we can not hallow -- this ground. The brave men, living and dead, who struggled here, have consecrated it, far above our poor power to add or detract. The world will little note, nor long remember what we say here, but it can never forget what they did here. It is for us the living, rather, to be dedicated here to the unfinished work which they who fought here have thus far so nobly advanced. It is rather for us to be here dedicated to the great task remaining before us -- that from these honored dead we take increased devotion to that cause for which they gave the last full measure of devotion -- that we here highly resolve that these dead shall not have died in vain -- that this nation, under God, shall have a new birth of freedom -- and that government of the people, by the people, for the people, shall not perish from the earth.

Lubzi's Remixes

EnglishManInNY

Summertime

9 inch kurdish

you and me - smoke in your eyes

Money money money

Je ne taimes pas 
Black coffee

Rush the floor with Saba7 Fakhri 

Chemical Taqseem Lami

LubziMix : Soccer كرة القدم

LubziMix : What happens when west & east meet? harmony or noise?

LubziMix : You're a Good Man Charlie Brown

- You're a Good Man Charlie Brown Lyrics      . [LINUS] I really don't think you have anything to worry about, Charlie Brown. After all, science has shown that a person's character isn't really established until he's at least five years old. [SALLY (overlapping)] The only thing wrong with my big brother, Charlie Brown, is his lack of confidence; his inferiority and lack of confidence. His clumsiness, his inferiority, his lack of confidence. His stupidity his clumsiness, his inferiority and his lack of confidence, his... [SCHROEDER (overlapping)] Did you know that Charlie Brown has never pitched a winning baseball game, never been able to keep a kite in the air, never won a game of checkers and never successfully punted a football? Sometimes I marvel at his consistency. [LUCY (overlapping)] Now Charlie Brown has what you call a Failure Face, Linus. Notice how it has failure written all over it. Study it carefully. You rarely see such a good example. [CHARLIE BROWN (overlapping)] Some days I wake up early to watch the sunrise, and I think how beautiful it is, and how my life lies before me, and I get a very positive feeling about things. Like this morning for instance; the sky's so clear and the sun's so bright. How can anything go wrong on a day like this? I'm late! [SNOOPY] Woof! [ALL (except Charlie Brown)] You're a good man, Charlie Brown You're the kind of reminder we need You have humility, nobility and a sense of honor that is very Rare indeed. [SNOOPY] Woof! [OTHERS] You're a good man, CHarlie Brown And we know you will go very far Yes it's hard to believe Almost frightening to conceive What a good man you are. [SCHROEDER] You are kind. [OTHERS] You are kind to all the animals And every little bird With a heart of gold You believe what you're told... [LUCY] Every single solitary word [OTHERS] You bravely face adversity You're cheerful through the day You're thoughtful Brave and couteous [LUCY] And you also have some faults But for the moment let's just say [OTHERS] That you're a good man, Charlie Brown You're a prince And a prince could be king With a heart such as yours You could open any doors You could go out and do anything You could be King Charlie Brown You could be king! [CHARLIE BROWN] Everybody says to me: [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [CHARLIE BROWN] Every voice in harmony [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [CHARLIE BROWN] All I need is one more try Gotta get that kite to fly And I'm not the kind of guy Who gives up easily Wonder why they stop to say: [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [CHARLIE BROWN] Never liked me, anyway [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [CHARLIE BROWN] Trying not to rock the boat Not to make a scene A good man? Yes But I confess I don't know what they mean I wanna rise like I should And do everything right But I lie awake at night... With questions in my ear I want to join the dance [OTHERS] Oooh Never sleep Oooh Loud and deep Oooh Take the leap [CHARLIE BROWN] But the answer isn't clear. Than I hear: [OTHERS] Charlie Brown... Charlie Brown... You're a good man, Charlie Brown You're a good man, Charlie Brown [SCHROEDER] Get on the bus [LUCY] Get on the bus [LINUS] Go ahead, get on the bus, Charlie Brown! [SALLY] Don't wanna be late for school! [OTHERS] That's right! [CHARLIE BROWN] Don't wanna be late! [ALL] Don't wanna be late for school! [SNOOPY] Woof! [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown You're the kind Of reminder we need You have humility, Nobility, And a sense of honor That is very rare indeed [CHARLIE BROWN] There they go again Don't know what they mean I'm not good, I'm not bad I'm somewhere In between [SNOOPY] Woof! [OTHERS] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [CHARLIE BROWN] I don't understand You're a prince And a prince could be king With a heart such as yours You could open any doors You could go out And do anything You could be King, Charlie Brown You could be King! [CHARLIE BROWN] "Nothing lasts forever" [OTHERS] You could be king [CHARLIE] "All good things must end" I've memorized That phrase by heart. So tell me, I need to know it... [OTHERS] Believe it And you were born for this part You're a good man, Charlie Brown! [CHARLIE] When do the Good things start? [LUCY/SCHROEDER] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [LINUS/SALLY] Bravely facing Adversity You can open up [SNOOPY] Oh, You're a good man [LUCY/SCHROEDER] You're a good man, Charlie Brown [ALL] You're ad good man, Charlie Brown!

and I found this on youtube

LubziMix : Schroeder - from the Musical "You're a god Man Charlie Brown"

[LUCY]
D'ya know something, Schroeder?
I think the way you play the piano is nice.
D'ya know something else?
It's always been my dream
That I'd marry a man who plays the piano.

At parties he'd play something nice like
"April Showers."
I'm sure you could play something nice like
"April Showers."
Or even "Frere Jacques."
Beethoven's nice too.

Just imagine
What would you think if someday you and I should get married?
Wouldn't you like that if someday we two should get married?

My aunt Marion was right, never try to discuss marriage with a musician.

LubziMix : I feel ev'ry now and then.. That I gotta bite someone... (You're a Good Man Charlie Brown)

Musical: You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown
Title: Snoopy

[SNOOPY]
They like me.
I think they're swell.
Isn't it remarkable
How things turn out so well?

Pleasant day, pretty sky
Life goes on, here I lie
Not bad, not bad at all.

Cozy home, board and bed
Sturdy roof beneath my head
Not bad, not bad at all.

Faithful friends
Always near me,
Bring me bones,
Scratch my ear

Little birds
Come to cheer me
Ev'ry day
Sitting here,
On my stomach
With their sharp little claws
Which are usually cold,
And occasionally painful,
And sometimes there are so many
That I can hardly stand it...

Rats!

I feel ev'ry now and then
That I gotta bite someone.
I know ev'ry now and then what I wanna be.
A fierce jungle animal crouched on the limb
Of a tree

[GIRLS (offstage)]
La la la la la la la la la la la la la

[SNOOPY]
La la la la la la la la la la la la la
I'd stay very very still
Till I see a victim come.
I'd wait knowing very well ev'ry second counts.
And then like the fierce jungle creature I am
I would pounce!
I'd pounce!
I'd punce!
I'd-

You know, I never realized it was so far down to
the ground from up here.

Let me see, where was I?
Oh, that's right, the pretty sky,
Not bad, not bad at all.

Cozy home, board and bed
Sturdy roof beneath my head
Not bad, not bad at all.
Not bad, not bad at all.

I wonder if it will snow tonight.

Till Your Ears Bleed - My 2010 Welcome theme

TillYourEarsBleed.mp3


I made this  piece in san francisco in year 2000.
in year 2001 my 'industry' (I.T)  'crashed' .. my company went under . i lost my job on my birthday in june 2001.
paradise lost .. the dream of freedom and dignity slipped again from my fingers .. that freedom i was only able to feel in the United States of America.
I am serious. I felt a connection with the land and the people. I felt i am able to belong , and belong and belong. I was able to live my different identities . i was able to be an Arab , an artist , a woman, a geek , a Canadian even , I was able to be a better Canadian in the USA. I was able to wear my  Palestinian Koufiyeh and my Jordanian shmagh without fear.. I was able to get involved and express myself as a citizen even though i wasnt even a US citizen! True I was living in a very special place , California is a special place. I was involved in politics without fear. I love that place!
i had to leave. jobs were scarce after the hi-tech bubble burst .. and after 911 there was no chance on earth for me to get a job .. an Arab and not even an american , arab looking and with an accent .. not the perfect age or gender or skin color either .. no way.. i tried very hard..  but ..no way
i couldnt afford it ... i realized my generous severance package will run out soon if i dont do something ...
so much soul searching..
so much .. day and night
battling with my fear
barely any support
i came up with the decision to go back to Canada! after all i am a Canadian citizen , this is my country too.. it is my country in a different and special way .. a country of choice. I jumped through hoops and loops to make it my country . I studied and passed. I went through rigorous examinations and had to live in freezing cold for years to earn my Canadian citizenship.
i was drawn to Canada because of the reputation it has, the values it preaches . not because i was starving in my country. I thought it was a place where people have dignity and freedom and equality. and everyone has the same opportunity and respect. I wanted to live in canada because i wanted to live in a democracy and in peace and have opportunities and be able to help others in the world. That is why I chose Canada to be my new country.
Living in the east wasnt bad. The culture in Montreal is awesome . there is racism but at least there is culture and passion and good food. but the weather is very cold!   it's just frigging cold ! so so so cold ! no one can comprehend the intensity of this cold except people who live in it.
the gas used to freeze in my car . i once cried from the cold. i made the mistake of taking off my mitten to try and open my car door , the lock was frozen , the exposure of my hand without the mitten for a few minutes made me cry , i felt my fingers will fall off ! it was so painful!
no way would i go back! so cold!
i decided to go back to school to become a film director !
i decided to move to Vancouver. and i didnt know anything about Vancouver. just that it's the closest biggest Canadian city, never been there and met maybe only 3 or 4 people from there in all the years i lived in Canada!
I drove up all the way to vancouver. I slept in the car at night  and drove during the light.
I had a dream long before this happened. It was strange because I dont know much about vancouver, I never think of vancouver. It was sometime in  2000/2001 I was working in silicon valley totally enjoying the sun and the freedom and the opportunitues..
i had a dream one day , in my sleep; I dreamt i was in Vancouver , and there was an earthquake ..
i was alone .. and the earth was shaking .. but a voice inside me was telling me not to be afraid .. i was ducking  under a small construction that looked like a box made out of concrete and i was feeling safe and that everything will just be allright!
this song was my canada re-entry theme. i drove up all the way to Vancouver.. it was fall time and the colors of the leaves was fascinating .. on my way i found a safari zoo , and then a bird sanctuary .. i stopped and visited ! i felt free and in bliss.
l never ended up living in vancouver or  going back to school.
my life took turns like i had never expected..
i discovered that the east is not like the west . the frost of the cold is mercy compared to the cold fire of the racism.
what a hard decade ! I call it my British Columbia decade!
the hardest in my life but fantastically transforming!
I thank Canada , I love Canada , and I am a proud Canadian , still inspired by the canadian values of human rights and freedom and protection of the environment and animals and caring and helping other people of the world.. etc..  which are unfortunately being stepped on by our government while canadians watch silently!

so there you go , that is the story of this music
Goodbye 2000-2009
welcome
2010 !
may it  be  THE year where the deepest human aspiration of peace and fulfillment of basic need becomes reality

3 Racism Mixes

This is how I express my outrage at racism that I am constantly exposed to, me and many many others in this world.

Here is my Racism Tune Pack

Black Coffee - a Remix by Lubzi

Black coffee.mp3

I am addicted to حمص (Hummus)

TITLE: I am addicted to حمص

DATE: 11/14/2006 20:00:28

I am addicted to  Hummus حمص

I cant stop eating Hummus
عن جد... مش قادرة اوقف أكل حمص   ... بحبه بحبه
بموت في ربه


والله

شكرا يا رب على الحمص

Thank you God for the Hummus











 with olive oil زاكي مع زيت الزيتون

 and salt and lebon وملح ولمون


 and hot pita وكماج سخن

 



  and summak and cummin
وسماق وكمون

  and a fresh tomato وحبة بندورة



 






 and some olives مع شوية زتون






 God bless the Hummus يسعد رب الحمص

My feet are planted in the ground

But I want my head to be in he stars at the same time. to relax to the fact that things are taken care of, what will happen will happen and things are where they are and that is how it is . maybe there is a deeper meaning for things and maybe there isnt. But fighting what will happen doesnt make sense. it will not prevent it. and yes we do our best so that the outcome is favourable to us, but we can never control the outcome , just influence it , maybe - slightly. OR do we create reality with our thoughts? or prayers? I dont know . One thing I know is that if i am supposed to loose my job or home or money etc... it will happen, and just like a tree or a fish is taken care of I will be taken care of. history has proved it.

 

What makes my heart beat and my lungs breathe will keep me alive just as t happened before, lifts me from the lowest of the lowest to a place I never thought I will be in. I sometimes think that the collective thoughts of the people around us and who think of us in addition to our own thoughts is what creates our reality, or more accurately co-create our reality along with the mystery of God ... the universe ... what beats my heart and makes my lungs breathe and my eyes see...

so if you are surrounded by racists for example , and they all lay a negative discourse on you, say you are living in the heart of the most racist town and you are the only aboriginal person , all the people around you are projecting on you . they are dressing you with a particular discourse: the looser, the drunk , the lazy one.. etc... they treat you as such , you start believing them , if you believe in something but 1000 people around you tell you that you are wrong you start doubting yourself. They are creating your reality and you are playing along if you dont stand firm with your feet planted in the ground.

so there is a big story, everyone is part of writing it, if we dont pay attention who is writing our story , it will not be written like we want , we end up living someone else's dreams not yourself, lost , miserable, weak, self resentful etc...

BUT, what is the line between self deception and standing your ground, being egotistic and refusing to change or see yourself vs allowing others to write your story.. sometimes - actually more often than not, these things mix up in my mind . Once i let it go all the way and .. I paid a very high price. so I will never allow anyone to write my story no matter what.  I wont let it happen. Whatever we think we will attract - they say. So we shouldnt focus our energy on the negative and be very aware of the dangerous consequences.

الغصة كبيرة... بس الأمل أكبر

مش راح أسمح لحدا يهدني... يكسر نفسي أو عزيمتي

My inner Cat Blog

i know .. that sounds very geeky and weird. but my inner cat has a blog! Is it weird that I have an inner cat , or that a cat has a blog? or both?

you know how cats are, they like attention.
i had to post this for her ..

:)

My Inner Cat Blog

By @DrRemy - Music set collaboration of: @sciencebase: David Bradley, @Lubzi & @Businari : Mauricio .

This post in copied entirely from Dj DocRemy - it was posted today , and she  is featuring my music  again :) !

I am super thankful to Dj DocRemy for her great show and for sharing with us the great talents of @sciencebase, David Bradley, and @Businari, Mauricio.

Featuring my Audio Art track : 'Abraham' Here is a link to Dj DocRemy's original post where you can check other very cool music. If you want to hear Abraham itself uncut , here it is :)

Braham - Lubzi*

Here is what Dj DocRemy  said on her blog:   

Collaboration Nov 6 2009 Final by DjDocREMY

This music set is with collaboration of @sciencebase, David Bradley, @Lubzi and @Businari, Mauricio.

I opened the set with (@sciencebase) David’s Here Comes the Sun mixed with (@Businari) Businari’s Baal from Hi-Brazil Soundtrack from the epic book The Song of the Spheres, Vol.1, The Bard and the Queen Of Ice. http://homepage.mac.com/hibrazil/bardo1_index.html (details of the Legend)

This represents sunrise on our planet earth, Gaia.

Next I mixed rectus limbus from Businari’s Hi-Brazil Let’s Do the Samba: http://homepage.mac.com/hibrazil/ldts_index.html (for details) as this represents the sunrise has now warmed our earth.

I picked Babak and transition to (@Lubzi) Lubzi’s Braham. This represents that we, as human race, have set up way of life that resonates our higher self. According to Lubzi’s Braham: is Braham Lincoln, as is also Abraham, the ‘father’ of the Jews and Arabs: The Wise Father as is Abraham Lincoln: The Government of the People.

I like the fact that Lubzi’s piece represents both the Arabs and the Jews as one, connecting by Abraham. It is wise of her to do so in this fashion of music and speech combined.

Again from David’s Sunrise to warm the earth by Businari’s pieces and closing with Lubzi’s Braham as Abraham to Abraham Lincoln’s Gettysburg address.

What talented friends I have. Thank you David, Mauricio and Lubzi….. You have honored me much!

A short animation : In Palestine

GoAnimate.com: In Palestine by lubzi

Like it? Create your own at GoAnimate.com. It's free and fun!

Empathy for Blending of Emotions: Discord, Resolve & Celebration. Lubzi's muic is featured on DocrRmy's #musicweeklycelebtation

This post in copied entirely from Dj DocRemy - it was posted on Saturday, October 3, 2009 , the weekend that she featured my music :) !

I am super thankful to Dj DocRemy for her great show and for featuring my Audio Art track : October 22.  Here is a link to Dj DocRemy's original post where you can check other very cool music and listen to October 22.
here is the Original October 22 piece uncut :

Oct 22 - Lubzi*

Here is what Dj DocRemy  said on her blog:   
"DjDrRemy - @Lubzi: Empathy for Blending on Discord-Resolve-and-Celebration by DjDocREMY

This #WeeklyMusicCelebration set is featuring our talented friend @Lubzi. I specifically name it: Empathy for Blending of Emotions: Discord, Resolve & Celebration. And the following is what @Lubzi explains about her music: 

“The track name is “Oct22”. In fact it is about September 11. I called it October 22 because in those days (2002) Arabs living in the west couldn’t even discuss 9/11 without receiving at least accusing looks. So I was being ironic on the terrorizing of Arab immigrants in the name of fighting terrorism. 
In the beginning, things are moving in a steady pace somewhat peaceful and then all of sudden the world blows up and all the crazy events that happened afterward were too overwhelming and surreal: that is how 911 went and what I am expressing in the track.I did not have specific goal in mind: Only let my emotions take the helm as I had a load of hard to handle feelings about 9/11 and I needed to wear my heart over my sleeve.My hope is that people would feel some of my feelings….” 

As for me, I picked this track of Lubzi’s (out of the 5 tracks she sent me) as somehow I resonate with the tune though I had no idea what the tune means – not until she tweeted me with the explanation.

On this set, I have added how I feel for her music as you may catch it at ~2:24 mins. then her track resumes at ~3.49 mins. I remix “Daft Punk” songs for two reasons: 
1) It is entirely electronic sound – This is to emphasize how technological science of music program allows us to produce music. 
2) It resonates how our humanity become stronger as a human race, faster in technology and outreach of communications which allows us to share and have more empathy as we try harder by the closing song which is a celebration to our spirit of Being - as One."

So Say We All ....

So Say We All ....

Hello world!!

'Hello world' ..

Our first computer programs... always have 'hello world' in them
this is not my first blog.. or the second..
why do i have many blogs? because i am a multi-layered person. my needs to express my layers can contradict, so i sometimes need to be several people, several blogs, in order to really express myself. It is never enough though. I can't even express myself fully between me and myself. my mind cant keep up with my feelings, my talent cant keep up with my vision , my poetry cant keep up with my passion, my mind suppresses my dreams, my conditioning oppresses my talent. It's a big mess.. what can I say..
still i write..