I don't understand... you don't understand

I don't understand the laws of gravity on your planet
you don't understand why i don't understand
i don't understand why you cant understand why i don't understand

time and place failed,... an error happened
I was in my dimension
happy
an error happened
I turned into particles
and was transferred
here I am in your dimension
trying to figure out how your gravity works
here you can fall , in my planet you never fall
here it hurts when you fall , there you never fall

i don't understand why you laugh when you laugh
you don't understand why i cry when i cry
and i don't understand why you don't understand
and you don't understand why i don't understand why you don't understand
what make you laugh can make me cry
what makes me cry can make you laugh
and things fall..
i cant walk here, I'm not used to walking
there we float, we get to where we want to get by looking at it
here it takes time to get there
i cant understand the concept of something talking time
you don't understand why i cant understand
i don't understand how you understand what you understand

I cant hear your voice
i try to speak
my lips move and words come out
i cant hear them
you cant hear them
i see them floating
they are blown away by your wind
they spread over the universe .. and float
they are all over the place ... but invisible

an error happened
and I'm stuck in your dimension
and you don't understand why i cant cope with it
why i cant love it
you don't understand why i cant walk,
why i am so afraid of falling
why i cant hear you
you don't believe i cant understand your gravity
i don't understand why you cant believe
you don't understand that i cant understand
i cant understand why you cant understand

'Unlove' poetry

pack up the memories
stick them in your suitcase
along with your promises
and lies...
the lying looks..
in your eyes
your hypocrisy
treason
beyond any reason
why did you appear
like a ghost
like a lie
I am to blame
Ah.. the loathing
The shame
why
did I ever
give it a try ?
a chance
for shit and romance
It is insane..
but I am to blame
I feel so small
immersed
in resentment
and shame
regret
what did I get..
nothing but
a waste of time
a handful of shit
I've been hit
yet again
no one's to blame
besides my twisted brain

والله
insane
pure madness
emotional paralysis
not even sadness
just pain
and more .. and more
and yet again

you asked if i love you
i said i do
you're dreaming …
if you believe ..
that someone like me
would ever fall for someone like you
no matter how lonely
desperate and blue
someone like me
would never ever fall for you

silence will be 
all that you
get from me

yes.. it is over, fool
we are done
you know you aren’t
the only one..
the only fool
actually it is me
who is the fool
but now i can
easily breathe
i can be ...
I can go back
to being me
now that you fucked off
now that you are
permanently gone

you killed me
so you died
why are you
so surprised?

i now vanish
i disappear..
i now dont exist
I’m not even here

the story was not impressive
only pathetic, sad, depressive..
abusive, hurtful, oppressive..

you were a cyst
now removed
left me numb
a frozen zombie
unmoved
i am not here
and you died
are you really
still surprised?

a few Haikus

dark clouds fill the sky
rain wets trees and streets
people shop
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wet cat hides behind the tree
teacher teaches
music breaks the silence and fills the world
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dark green pine tree through the window
top branches reach to the sky
the rest spread in all directions
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Mountains peak through clouds
a fly wanders on the window
fresh music of birds
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A Seagull stands on the electric pole
A Grey squirrel travels on the black wire
crispy new day
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Time stands still as she plucks those harp strings
Her fingers become time and space
Everybody listens
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the sound of chewing
a pen dances on a paper leaving a trace of writing
music breaks the silence barrier
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Teacher teaches
everyone listens
mount fuji on the stick
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food boils in pots
the sound and smell of the ocean fills the air
beach cat appears with her love and beauty
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Raoul the greatest musician of all
his hands the scratch the beat the music the world
past present future me you and all is Raoul
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silver red blue ocean
a couple of seagulls fighting in the air
laughs of women from far away
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rosy cheeks bright eyes listen
roshi teaches
the couple melt in the music
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perfect imperfection
a wise man teaches
Everything Everyone everytime shinzan
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a branch outside framed by a window on grey canvas
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Winds violently rock tree branches
Streets covered with a palette of leaves
A great symphony of chaos
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PLUM
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drops drip off the needles of a pine tree
wet dark mother's womb
winter makes its grand entrance
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days dark nights bright
Then the world became a crow
Colorful lights dance on the black road
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Children dance like popcorn kernels
The crazy river sweeps away logs and life
Collectively Fish go home to die
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Playing with colors
Rain falls down violently drowning the streets
The book speaks aloud
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extreme ebb leaves a clean glossy beach as vast as the ocean
snakes curl lifeless on the sand
light leaks through a thousand holes in the sky dome
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chunky stuff, spices and bubbles swim in the creamy hot soup
dizziying sax dancing drum joyful piano how groovy
jazz jazz jazz
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Jazzy orange sun disk sinks behind the firey cotton candy
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Frida laughs
Frida cries
Frida lives Frida dies
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Fields of colorful lights
making no difference
in a moonless cold night
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Dark clouds
Cruel wind
Leaves race scratching the heart of the street
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green red black and white
crunchy soft hot and cold
a glossy fresh fiesta in a bowl
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blues in the morning blues at night
Blues dark and loud
blues intensely bright & light
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